Wow, it has been awhile since I have written anything! Life just seemed to get a little crazy lately with activities. Devin had his Spring band concert last week, man, have they improved since January! I was so proud of him when he played in a trio with two other trumpet players, they sounded so good!!! I thought I was going to cry a few times just listening to them play, he is growing up way too fast!
I finally was able to get my bike out and ride this past weekend, it's about time, damn I was going stir crazy!! I am paying for it today, my back feels like someone hit it with a sledge hammer!! I will get used to it once I can get out there consistently, that is if the good ole Ohio weather cooperates! It was so nice to feel the sun on my face and hit the bike path again, I love it.
I have to bitch a little here, it just has to come out. There is nothing worse than when your trying to ride on the path and you get those dumb ass people who like to just stand on the path or leave their fucking bike right in the middle!!! WTF people, hello, put your shit off to the side, it breaks your rhythm and just chaps my ass when it happens!! I even saw a silly bastard out there practicing boxing with his personal trainer, yo Rocky get the fuck out my way and find a gym, it's a BIKE PATH Einstein!!!!! Whew, I feel so much better, now I am ready to ride again!!!
The on-going dating saga continues, a friend of mine had me over to a cookout/blind date Saturday night. She wanted me to meet one of her single friends and be miss match maker. I had a good time, but no romantic chemistry was happening for me, just didn't feel the vibe. I was grateful to meet her friend and enjoyed the food and conversation. Hey it beats staying at home on a Saturday night! The quest continues, and my faith is still strong, we will find each other soon, I can feel it!!
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Sunday
The weekend is rapidly coming to an end, which means back to the grind stone tomorrow, bummer!!! Oh well, it's what we have to do to pay those damn bills, at least that what I keep telling myself.
Devin and I did some fishing this weekend, God I love spending time like that with him, it just means so much to me. I was pissed this week because I had sacrifice my time with him because of work obligations. I admit, I do get a little irritated when I have to give up any spec of time I have with him. He is growing so fast, soon he will become a man, wow! I love watching him waiting for that ever so elusive fish to bite his hook. Come on you little bastards, cut the kid some slack and bite that damn hook will ya!!!!
He is so fascinated with fish, I truly hope he pursues his dream of becoming a Marine Biologist.
Well, I am back to square one on the dating scene, sucks, but what are you going to do! I just can't seem to meet someone that is ACTUALLY, REALLY, ready for another relationship. It seems to be the same story over and over, it's like the movie ground hog day, only it involves me!! I spill my entire life story, take my time, be patient only to find out at the moment of truth they aren't ready, WTF!!!!!
I sometimes feel like I am the only one out there that is emotionally healthy. I have worked so hard over the past three years to get here!! I have put the work in and I am ready dammit!!! I needed to vent that frustration, it is hard to find someone to talk to that truly understands where I am coming from. I wrote the following poem last year, it describes how I am feeling. Maybe someday, maybe someday!!!!
Expectations
I sit alone as the sun sets in the distant horizon; my thoughts are filled with questions of which I cannot find answers too. It’s as if I am looking into a world that my presence will never exist, I reach out desperately seeking to be touched, but only to feel the stillness of an empty room. I try so hard to keep believing in miracles, one of which that will bring my true love and I together. This sea of expectations I have drifted upon for so long is vast, and shows little mercy to those who choose to navigate its treacherous waters. Do I concede and let the sea claim my dreams of true love…or do I continue to drift among its vast waters in hopes of finally reaching my destination?
Devin and I did some fishing this weekend, God I love spending time like that with him, it just means so much to me. I was pissed this week because I had sacrifice my time with him because of work obligations. I admit, I do get a little irritated when I have to give up any spec of time I have with him. He is growing so fast, soon he will become a man, wow! I love watching him waiting for that ever so elusive fish to bite his hook. Come on you little bastards, cut the kid some slack and bite that damn hook will ya!!!!
He is so fascinated with fish, I truly hope he pursues his dream of becoming a Marine Biologist.
Well, I am back to square one on the dating scene, sucks, but what are you going to do! I just can't seem to meet someone that is ACTUALLY, REALLY, ready for another relationship. It seems to be the same story over and over, it's like the movie ground hog day, only it involves me!! I spill my entire life story, take my time, be patient only to find out at the moment of truth they aren't ready, WTF!!!!!
I sometimes feel like I am the only one out there that is emotionally healthy. I have worked so hard over the past three years to get here!! I have put the work in and I am ready dammit!!! I needed to vent that frustration, it is hard to find someone to talk to that truly understands where I am coming from. I wrote the following poem last year, it describes how I am feeling. Maybe someday, maybe someday!!!!
Expectations
I sit alone as the sun sets in the distant horizon; my thoughts are filled with questions of which I cannot find answers too. It’s as if I am looking into a world that my presence will never exist, I reach out desperately seeking to be touched, but only to feel the stillness of an empty room. I try so hard to keep believing in miracles, one of which that will bring my true love and I together. This sea of expectations I have drifted upon for so long is vast, and shows little mercy to those who choose to navigate its treacherous waters. Do I concede and let the sea claim my dreams of true love…or do I continue to drift among its vast waters in hopes of finally reaching my destination?
Friday, April 20, 2007
Friday
I received an e-mail from a lovely women that a friend of mine tried to set me up with last year. Unfortunately, she has chosen a career that consumes her every waking moment, which also leaves very little time for her young son. We could just never make our schedules match and find time to connect. She would send me e-mails at 2:00 AM because she was still at work after being there since 7:00 AM. Wow, talk about dedication, but that crosses the line and borders on crazy. Her company could give a rats ass less about her personally, just get it done, and bring us more profit!
I have to admit that I have always rebelled against that corporate life style, it just has never made sense to me. I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to have a successful career. But, I do know it will always leave you feeling empty inside. When is it enough? How many houses, cars, and material things does it take to fulfill the emptiness inside?
I wrote this poem about another friend of mine who will always have a special place in my heart! It reminded me of how she must feel after getting home from a 18 hour day.
Solace
Shadows of the night dance across the room. Her mind wanders in what seems like endless directions. Weary eyes that long too rest. Rest as they did before life washed away all of the innocence and brought pain to such a beautiful heart. Desperately seeking to cross the bridge that lies between reality and the enchanting world of dreams where there is nothing but peace and love. Finally, in the stillness of night comes solace, her pain fades momentarily, and she drifts off to sleep.
I have to admit that I have always rebelled against that corporate life style, it just has never made sense to me. I don't think there is anything wrong with wanting to have a successful career. But, I do know it will always leave you feeling empty inside. When is it enough? How many houses, cars, and material things does it take to fulfill the emptiness inside?
I wrote this poem about another friend of mine who will always have a special place in my heart! It reminded me of how she must feel after getting home from a 18 hour day.
Solace
Shadows of the night dance across the room. Her mind wanders in what seems like endless directions. Weary eyes that long too rest. Rest as they did before life washed away all of the innocence and brought pain to such a beautiful heart. Desperately seeking to cross the bridge that lies between reality and the enchanting world of dreams where there is nothing but peace and love. Finally, in the stillness of night comes solace, her pain fades momentarily, and she drifts off to sleep.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Hair Boy is Gone!!
Can I get a hell yeah!!! American Idol finally got there shit together and voted off somebody that actually can't sing!!! Later hair boy, good luck with your fashion career!!
This week is almost over, thank God!!! My schedule is all out of whack with this getting up at 3:20 AM every damn day! You know it's early when your the only dumb ass out there driving on the road that's sober! O.K., got that out of my system!
This one is for my brother-in-law Bill, and fellow carnivore, thanks for being such a great husband to my little sister. You have some mean carpentry skills as well, I swear they cloned Norm Abram when I see your work.
Alright, down to business, the following recipe is for you Bill. I love to create quick, easy, and healthy recipes. There is nothing worse to me than getting home late from a solid workout and having to cook something elaborate. Dammit, I want food now!!!
Grilled Chicken Mini Pizza
1- Small Whole Wheat Tortilla
1/4 Cup Mozzarella Cheese
1-Tbs of Pizza Sauce - Recipe to Follow
3oz - Pre-Cooked Grilled Chicken Breast
Dash of Oregano
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Pizza Sauce
1-5oz can of Tomato Sauce
1-Clove Minced Garlic
1/4 Tsp Dried Basil
1/4 Tsp Dried Oregano
Dash of Salt & Pepper
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Preheat oven to 450 degrees, line a cookie sheet with foil. Place tortilla shell on cookie sheet, spread pizza sauce evenly on top of shell. Evenly distribute chicken breast, top with mozzarella cheese, and sprinkle with dried oregano. Bake in oven for 7 to 8 minutes, remove from oven and let stand for 1-minute, cut into 4 slices and enjoy!
I typically have my pizza with a fresh green salad and bottle of water.
This week is almost over, thank God!!! My schedule is all out of whack with this getting up at 3:20 AM every damn day! You know it's early when your the only dumb ass out there driving on the road that's sober! O.K., got that out of my system!
This one is for my brother-in-law Bill, and fellow carnivore, thanks for being such a great husband to my little sister. You have some mean carpentry skills as well, I swear they cloned Norm Abram when I see your work.
Alright, down to business, the following recipe is for you Bill. I love to create quick, easy, and healthy recipes. There is nothing worse to me than getting home late from a solid workout and having to cook something elaborate. Dammit, I want food now!!!
Grilled Chicken Mini Pizza
1- Small Whole Wheat Tortilla
1/4 Cup Mozzarella Cheese
1-Tbs of Pizza Sauce - Recipe to Follow
3oz - Pre-Cooked Grilled Chicken Breast
Dash of Oregano
________________________________
Pizza Sauce
1-5oz can of Tomato Sauce
1-Clove Minced Garlic
1/4 Tsp Dried Basil
1/4 Tsp Dried Oregano
Dash of Salt & Pepper
_________________________________
Preheat oven to 450 degrees, line a cookie sheet with foil. Place tortilla shell on cookie sheet, spread pizza sauce evenly on top of shell. Evenly distribute chicken breast, top with mozzarella cheese, and sprinkle with dried oregano. Bake in oven for 7 to 8 minutes, remove from oven and let stand for 1-minute, cut into 4 slices and enjoy!
I typically have my pizza with a fresh green salad and bottle of water.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
In Loving Memory
Yesterday thirty three souls were released like butterflies from cocoons, all ascending into the heaven's. It is said that true mastery is being able to see beauty among chaos, which is what I am trying so hard to do. Why can't we realize that we are all one!
I see yesterday not as a tragedy, but as one soul granting thirty two other souls wishes to depart this realm. I find peace in knowing they are all in the absolute where nothing exist but pure love!
This brought back memories of my late beautiful brother, I loved him so much!! You suffered for ten long years and never once complained, not one negative word was ever uttered from your lips. I never cried for you because I knew you were fulfilling your destiny and that you were at peace my brother. Although, the tears do begin to flow when I think of the moment when death was beckoning and your pain became unbearable. You cried out for mom, for the one who gave you life, she held you so tightly. Our hearts were torn apart as we sat helpless watching you suffer so much, we pleaded with God to let it end. Finally, you left us as gently as you came into our lives. I will always remember the night you left, I awoke from my dream to see your beautiful face telling me everything was going to be alright, you were safe now, and your pain has ended. I love you my brother!!!
-In loving memory of Patrick Michael Routson 1966 to 2005
-Loving father, son, husband, and brother.
I see yesterday not as a tragedy, but as one soul granting thirty two other souls wishes to depart this realm. I find peace in knowing they are all in the absolute where nothing exist but pure love!
This brought back memories of my late beautiful brother, I loved him so much!! You suffered for ten long years and never once complained, not one negative word was ever uttered from your lips. I never cried for you because I knew you were fulfilling your destiny and that you were at peace my brother. Although, the tears do begin to flow when I think of the moment when death was beckoning and your pain became unbearable. You cried out for mom, for the one who gave you life, she held you so tightly. Our hearts were torn apart as we sat helpless watching you suffer so much, we pleaded with God to let it end. Finally, you left us as gently as you came into our lives. I will always remember the night you left, I awoke from my dream to see your beautiful face telling me everything was going to be alright, you were safe now, and your pain has ended. I love you my brother!!!
-In loving memory of Patrick Michael Routson 1966 to 2005
-Loving father, son, husband, and brother.
First Blog
This is my first try at this BLOG thing, thanks sis for recomending it to me!!
Today is day two of hell week, my ass was out of bed at 3:20 AM, and so looking forward to opening up the plant today. You know I have to bitch a little!!!! Can't wait until the weekend in hopes of catching up on my sleep.
Enough for now, I just wanted to try this thing out!!
Today is day two of hell week, my ass was out of bed at 3:20 AM, and so looking forward to opening up the plant today. You know I have to bitch a little!!!! Can't wait until the weekend in hopes of catching up on my sleep.
Enough for now, I just wanted to try this thing out!!
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